Thursday, June 30, 2011

All of this for Free?? No Way!

So there is a website on Facebook for military members specifically located on SHAPE/NATO in Belgium where you can buy and sell items, SHAPE FOR SALE!! This site can be addicting, but yesterday in fact I was not on the site to buy, I was on there to sell. I ran across a post that stated "I have a box of clothing I am going to be giving away for free, anyone interested in coming to look at it?" I thought I will email the person and see if I can just go over to look at some things. Today I arrived at her home as she only lives about 5 min from me on post and the woman had a huge box of clothing marked charity/trash. She was planning on PCS'ing out of here in July, that is soon I thought. She called it "going on holiday." I thought she meant a vacation, but anyway I was shocked to see the large box. I was going through the box and saw that most of the items in there were brand new or at least maybe worn only once! And, they fit me!! I was picking out clothes and periodically I would ask the woman if she was sure that she was giving it away. IT ALL LOOKED NEW, I am not kidding. I chose many sweaters, cardigans and dress pants as soon I will be returning to the work force! I asked her at the end if she was sure she was going to be giving them away for free, and then I offered to help her sell them, she said she didn't want to bother with it and she would end up tossing the box out. I thought to myself, could this really be happening?? These clothes are in great condition and how is it that she could just give them away to a total stranger? She was very generous and I ended up with 30 items for FREE. I throughout my life have just given away items, just last week I gave my friends some items but she wanted to swap, I received a whole bag of clothing for my kids and another box full from another friend. And well today three bags full of clothing for myself. My husband and I always talk about how great it feels to give to people who need, we do that no matter what. We share meals, give away items and donate clothes. If we can't use it someone else will. I never ask for anything in return or expect anything back. But this whole week I have been receiving so many things...you know God is great, and I have many great people around me. I am happy to be surrounded by them everyday. Today of course was different, a total stranger was so giving and didn't expect anything but a thank you, the world is great!!
I felt so warm inside today and felt so special. There isn't any reason why we shouldn't all be this way. Help thy neighbor. I know I will continue to do so.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Chris Says: "do you know what day it is?"

AHHHH!!!! I completely forgot it was Father's Day!! Yeah a big oops considering my hubby and I share three kids together. He asked me the morning of, and I was like, "no what day is it?" He said, "It's FATHER's DAY."  I missed it completely. I don't know if it is because I lost track of time while VACATIONING in Italy, yes I said ITALY. The hubby planned a special trip for us in ROME, Italy. I completely fell in love there again with my hubby. The food, atmosphere, and the dream of being in Italy made me oblivious to anything else around me. That was no excuse of course. My husband who never asks me for anything wasn't even mad that I had forgotten. I beat myself over it the whole day as we went to sight see around ROME. He said he didn't want anything from me, that he had it all right in front of him. A family. He tells me over and over how happy he is that he has US. Two sons, a daughter, and our crazy life together. I must admit spending Father's Day in Italy was amazing. I don't think my hubby will forget this years Father's Day as we visited an ancient city. Did I mention we walked pretty much the whole time we were in Italy!? Yeah crazy, but totally worth it. I did manage to buy my hubby a gift before we left to Italy that I had forgotten. He likes massages and I invested in some cool massage tools. That will be a gift that will keep on giving. Of course I will be doing the work but it is totally worth having my hubby relax.
I just want to say Chris if you are reading this, without you I would be lost. Without you, I would be unhappy, I know it. I am proud of you because you are the best daddy our kids could ask for and I am sorry I missed your special day but I promise I will make it up to you. Thank you also for making my dreams come true every day you are here and especially Italy. That is an amazing experience I will never forget!!
Happy Father's Day love! (***So I tried to add pictures but it won't allow it, Blogger is experiencing technical difficulties***)

Monday, June 13, 2011


I am a mother of two toddlers and a 10 year old!! Let me tell you, if the house is in silence, either my kids are into something they are not supposed to be in or I AM JUST VERY LUCKY! I take advantage of those moments, SILENCE. I just start to daydream and I collect my thoughts because really that silence only lasts for about 5 min. It seems surreal at times that the house can be in total silence. Today for example I was downstairs with my 1 year old teaching him how to walk across the living room and my other son was upstairs watching his toy story movie which he happens to be addicted to! Kayla was spending time with her dad upstairs as well, listening to music videos and even though the house was not in total silence, I still enjoyed it. We as moms don't get too much silence but when we do it is almost like we are in a SPA in a far away land!! LOL!! I am not saying I am annoyed by my kids because I am not but those moments are too far in between, ENJOY them.
So for now, I can hear my son jumping on his bed with his movie on, Kayla looking up places to visit in ITALY and my other son, is trying to take a nap. Daddy is reading a book...more silence!!!  So as I write I am thinking that I am so blessed to have a family around me because even though I enjoy the SILENCE once in a while, I really enjoy the laughs, stories and funny things my kids and my husband do throughout the day. I would not have it any other way!!

Thursday, June 9, 2011


I was thinking of doing a video on my Youtube Channel all about this so I think I may just give a brief history on why I am so interested in this topic...well because I was born with it! I have been going to the Dr. for blood tests all my life. Every month I was taken to check my TSH and T4 levels. Sounds scientific but in fact it is very important for my health and well being. The main reason why it has sparked so much more interest is because I am suffering from so many symptoms. Symptoms I should not be suffering from because I take my medication daily. I did a little research tonight that may have just given me some answers I have been looking for my whole life!! I will share more in a video..but for now...I will be hoping for a good night's rest since I am suffering from Insomnia!! I have had some pretty bad luck going from Dr. to Dr. here in Europe so tomorrow I will be on a mission to get some real answers...starting with my lab results. Sounds crazy that I will be taking things into my own hands, I will be forcing answers out of Drs. because I am sick and tired of being SICK and TIRED.
Tuesday I went to go see a Dr. and he flat out told me he couldn't help me. How is that fair, I was so angry because he didn't take the time to hear me explain the symptoms I was having. Noone has listened to me, they brush it off and suggest "IT MUST BE" my thyroid condition, and it very well can be. Did you know 80% of people suffering from Hypothyroidism have Hashimoto's Disease? Yeah and this whole time I could be one of those 80% and not know it. So yes, I will be inquiring more on this. Many people just go undiagnosed, but I am ready. I am ready to fight the pain I am in on a daily basis, if that means I have to go get more blood work.
I am so sorry for this random post, I have just been trying to get answers on my condition and it seemed like noone was willing to listen. I will keep you posted! Sometimes in life you have to fight for answers, do a little research, and hope for the best.
Oh yeah, what is HYPOTHYROIDISM, it is the disease you have when you have a low or non-functioning thyroid gland. It is all hormonal but I will give you a more in depth look when I post my video!! Please be on the lookout, I will gladly post it here when I finish it!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

IKEA is Dangerous!

Ok so normally I would be saying that IKEA is dangerous because I can find myself lost in there leaving the store with 200 Euro worth of stuff. That should be the only worry I have when I shop there well besides losing my kids in all that stuff!!
But BOMBS??  What...? Ok so when I opened my yahoo mail today I read several of my messages, one of which caught my eye. "Bombs in IKEA." This hit too close to home...Belgium. Not the one I normally shop at but the one I have been wanting to go to. Which happens to be only one hour and a half from my house!  I was surprised to hear this but then again, no I am not. We have to be aware of every place we go nowadays. I don't mean to be scared to leave your house, but be extra cautious. You know with all the politics happening now and well the recent news of Osama Bin Laden, things have been quite scary here in Europe. Most days I don't think about it because as you all know, I have trouble sleeping at night. But on this email in particular, it worried me. I attend places where things like this could happen quite easily! If we can be a target shopping at a furniture/decor store, we can be a target anywhere. Two small bombs were detonated inside an IKEA in Lille, France and the other in Ghent, Belgium. Two makeshift bombs, which injured only one person. One person is enough. I just don't understand why things like this need to keep happening. Hasn't the world seen enough? I mean really IKEA. You know the first IKEA I ever went to was here in Europe. Brussels, Belgium actually and I fell in love fast! I love their decor although their dishes CHIP easily and the furniture isn't sturdy...but still I like it a lot! They have two whole floors of goodness, a place to eat lunch and an area where the kids can run and play!

He could be famous some day!! She was close, he is a DJ!
 Let me tell you a funny story: the first time my hubby and I went to the IKEA in Brussels, a lady was following us through the store. I thought she might have been security or a secret shopper...but in fact the very same lady stopped my husband and asked if she could take a picture of my husband with her cell phone! WHAT!? Through our broken French and her broken English which went a little something like this: "hello, you are like PitBull, work with Snoop Dogg yeah?"   She thought my husband was a celebrity, a rapper...so she wanted a picture not only with her cellphone but with my husband beside her. I thought it was funny!! I will always remember that. See these are the moments I like, not ones where we have to worry if a bomb is going to go off while shopping for curtains. I know that sounds insensitive, but that just makes me mad!! Let me know what you think? Should I feel unsafe after this?

Friday, June 3, 2011

Night Shift

My husband does not have a regular 9-5 job in the military, in fact his schedule is so wacky I am not sure how his body and mind can take it. Five days on, four days off and then it flips...oh and then he works two day shifts, three night shifts...or three day shifts and two night shifts...it is so hard to keep track. Let me talk about his night shifts...I HATE THEM. Ok so I should appreciate the fact that my husband is home and not deployed but I believe I am so attached to my husband so much that I feel his pain of staying awake all night as he works. It could also be that I just get insomnia and don't feel like sleeping. It may also be paranoia..yeah I think so. I don't feel safe until my hubby returns so I feel like I need to stay awake just in case. Just in case what??? I wish I knew.
The reasons why I don't like his night shifts:
-They seem to take so long!
-I am more afraid of what can happen at night than in the day.
-I don't like his eating habits, doesn't help his goals to stay in shape.
-He gets tired easier. The list goes on.

Chris already knows that I stay awake so if he gets a chance he will call me around 1 am just to make sure I am in bed. Nights like these I catch up on my FB, FB group page, and my blog. I also think of ideas for my YT channel which I have hit a brain fart. I also think about my plans for the future. I don't want to get too deep into this but it is true. I take his night shifts and ponder about my plans and goals. I think about what it would be like if my hubby had a normal 9-5 job...not in the military. Yeah I shouldn't be thinking like this but sometimes I can't help it. He and I discuss it but could it become a reality some day..the day I return to work and not have to worry if he is going to deploy. You know in this economy I am just happy one of us is employed, things could be worse. I will say I am proud of my hubby and what he does for our family, I know he hates night shifts but someone has to do it. I am happy just knowing that he is patrolling and keeping the streets safe at night, at least on post! I sure do miss him though. I will say one thing, he doesn't sleep a whole lot when he gets off night shift just so he can spend time with me and the kids, now that is a loving and very dedicated man right there!!!  Good night everyone or shall I say good morning!!!??  

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Cosmetic Surgery: Tummy Tuck

Totally random I know, but for me this may be my only option. Let me give you a background story on this. I had two children via c-section within two years!! EEK! I gained massive amount of weight both times. I am pretty small framed and I went from a size 2/3..to a 9 in 9 months with a weight from 113 to 176 lbs. The second time wasn't so bad but I was still pretty heavy. I am not saying cosmetic surgery is my only option but if I have been working on my body consistently for about a year now with minimal results...I need to turn to other options. My ab muscles are so weak that I can't hold my stomach in and I don't even want to mention the extra skin. Ok so you all may have noticed I have been doing Zumba and other workouts but lately I have been so unmotivated because I see my stomach area everyday and it makes me want to quit. This has affected me greatly that I find myself hiding from people and the outside world. I know I am not the only one with insecurities in this world but IT is really bugging me. I did a little research and it could be that my tummy will never return to its original shape. I know, two kids can do that but I feel my case is drastic, I would show pics but it would be out of a horror film. I am down to 116 lbs, a consistent weight for two months now but I want more..I want my abs back!! So my plan right now is to get on a even healthier diet, strict one, and do more ab work!! I don't want the cosmetic surgery right now, but it still lingers in the back of my mind. Has anyone out there had the surgery before? I need advice!! If I am going under the knife I am asking for boobs too!! Why not!? lol. You know I never thought that I would be thinking of cosmetic surgery, where has my self confidence gone too?? 

Fake MAC Cosmetic Brushes!!

First, I just want to say, sorry for taking so long on posting!! It has been a hectic month, a lot of tears and sad moments to say the least. I have been in hibernation mode. I have however have been trying to keep busy.

The Fake Set

A couple days ago I received my PRIZE! Yay I won a contest on Youtube which happened to be the celebrity inspired makeup contest and I really have no idea when it comes to makeup. I just have fun with it and like to pretend that I know what I am doing. So I received three things, a set of 8 MAC cosmetic brushes, and two sets of fake eyelashes. I have never worn fake lashes before!
Unfortunately, the brush set was fake and the kind Youtube lady who sent them had no idea that she bought counterfeit brushes from a seller off Ebay!! Yeah so here it goes:

The REAL set of 8 made in the YEAR 2006!!
There have not been any new ones since!!
 I did my research because upon discovering the package in the mail, it was clearly sent from China (not the seller)..weird. I opened it and it had a funky chemical smell!! A harsh smell which is not normal for MAC. There are a few things wrong with the brushes. The paint, emblem, construction of the brush and other things. I actually posted a whole YT video on the brushes, not to slander the sender because I am pleased with them, it was just the excitement of owning REAL MAC brushes and then they turned out to be fake. It was not her fault at all, she was a victim. I don't own any MAC except 3 eyeshadows, one blush, a lip pencil and a lip gloss. That is it in my 25+ years of living. I don't gravitate towards MAC at all really...you know I am just sad that this poor girl paid for brushes that turned out to be fake.
Did you know? 99% of MAC Brush sets on Ebay are FAKE? Yeah and if you see MAC Brush sets online in sets of 6 or more, they are more likely fake too!! So Buyer Beware!! I will include some photos here and if you have any questions, please post them below. The eyelashes I received turned out to be fake as well. Remember MAC is fairly expensive so when you see a set of 8 for only $20.00 you should really question it!! I know I did.
Another tip, research!!! Knowledge is Power, don't get scammed!!! This goes for other brands such as Coach, Gucci and others! Thanks for reading!!